38: Courting Answers

Monday, I return to court for the final act. Well, at least I intend it to be the final act.

22: A Love Letter to Betrayers – Discomfort (Part 2)

Apparently, among other things, lying, cheating, and carrying secrets feels like food poisoning.

31: Swimming Beyond the Breakers

I had hoped someone would love me enough to see me while knowing my struggles were never about them. My hope contained both a selfish expectation and deep longing.

04: Regrets

No matter how beautiful, the cut flower eventually wilts.

61: Being Incognito: Thoughts on Grief, Loss, and Children

I pretend things didn’t happen that did. I confuse resiliency with the appearance of strength and cover with bravado. I pretend the losses don’t hurt.

60: I Lied Again

I find myself in places where I end up trying to control her responses and feelings. I believe, and so does she apparently, I am responsible for how she feels and how she responds, not just for what I do.

60: I Lied Again

11: A Love Letter to the Betrayers: The Monsters

Sure there are monsters, but in truth, most of what we are calling monster behavior is simply someone doing something stupid for stupid and innocent reasons. It’s just poor judgment, not pathological.

There are actually very few monsters.

57: My Favorite Ex-Wife

Let’s talk about my ex-wife.

04: A Love Letter to the Betrayer – The Three Questions

Moving forward, “Are my choices and actions consistent with what I value or am I doing things simply because I are afraid of what will happen if I don’t?”

I need to know to move forward.