42: Time Moves Slow

As much as I practice suiting up and showing up there is still a melancholy that follows me like dirt off Charles Schulz’s Pigpen.

41: Intent and Impact (Part 1)

I finally had enough and recognized how idiot compassion for Painter was an obstacle to my growth and moving forward in my life.

40: Coping with the Stories

It would be great if I could simply not do it again. If the wounds, trauma, pain, and anxiety hiding behind infidelity would simply go away. Disappear as if they never existed or as if they belonged to someone else.

39: Responding to Smear Campaigns

Until Chef pointed out the danger and threats inherent in the actions of the Flying Monkeys I didn’t fully appreciate the violent intentions lurking beneath their deeds and stories. I do now.

38: Courting Answers

Monday, I return to court for the final act. Well, at least I intend it to be the final act.

37: A Bit on Forgiveness

My experiences over the last several years has shown me how often my ego and pride need to be satiated before I will forgive someone I have decided has failed me. Even then I’m not sure I am forgiving as much as waiting to be right again.

36: The Wedding Rings

I recognize that Beatrix was addressing her discomfort by not wearing the wedding rings. She was responding to her distress as she experienced it even when she couldn’t name it.

I get that.

35: Battling Fear

I wear the armor for the battle I expect, not the battle I am living.

22: A Love Letter to Betrayers – Discomfort (Part 2)

Apparently, among other things, lying, cheating, and carrying secrets feels like food poisoning.

34: Trauma Stories

Everyone, and I mean everyone, will disconnect from their thinking brain when the pain exceeds their ability to cope. The only difference is what overwhelms me won’t always overwhelm you.