Love Letters to a Healing Heart
"Be not the slave of your own past – plunge into the sublime seas, dive deep and swim far, so you shall come back with self-respect, with new power, with an advanced experience, that shall explain and overlook the old." – Ralph Waldo Emerson
I’m going to be in The City of Bridges next week. While in Pittsburgh every bridge will be a reminder of where I am heading next. It will serve as a reminder of where I have been and where I am going. I’m finished pursuing forgiveness, acceptance, or love, regardless of what my broken heart wants.
Read More 37: April 22“What is most healing about bearing witness to things exactly as they are, including my own part in my pain, is that when the voice of the pain fits the pain, there is no room for Distortion or Illusion. And this way, truth becomes a clean bandage that heals, keeping dirt out of the wound.” – Mark Nepo
Read More 36: Cleaning out the woundReading post after post about what happens post-discovery almost no one acts well. Everything in this situation is ugly. I made it uglier.
Read More 35.3: No More Mixed Messages: The Benefit of Hindsight (Part III)The meaning and lessons of my infidelity are not black and white. The post-infidelity choices are not black and white. The pain is not black and white. The solutions are not black and white.
Read More 35.2: No More Mixed Messages: Breaking Patterns (Part II)On a shallow level, I believe C is ending the relationship because of my infidelity and secrets. However, at my core? At my core, I believe C is ending the relationship because I am not worthy of being loved.
That is an emotionally messed up way of interacting with the people that love you.
Read More 35.1: No More Mixed Messages: I Love You, Go Away (Part I)Recently, I let unqualified, biased and angry people with self-serving goals get in my head and turn the screws yesterday. I made a mistake and it bit me in the ass. I allowed myself to be distracted and ended up with other people defining me with more misguided armchair psychology. Clearly, mistakes are for other […]
Read More 29: DistractionsThree lessons on infidelity: 1.) I’m not a victim 2.) Secrets Suck 3.) Friendship and Ghost Stories
Read More 28: 70 Days, 3 LessonsMy heart breaks over and over and over. I’m an idiot. A self-sabotaging, unforgiven fool. The cold, hard, and brutal reality is, at this point, I am chasing a rainbow.
Read More 24: Chasing RainbowsAs she knows, she is the only one that owns my heart and has been since the day we met. Almost every moment since we met I’ve acted that way and anything else is a ghost story.
Read More 19: Running SilentWhen I embrace my pain, instead of treating it like the enemy, it becomes the doorway to wholeness. Which is all I ever wanted.
Read More 16: Well, that’s a pain
Love Letters to a Healing Heart 
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