Vaccums suck.
As such, it is good to have someone with experience offer me some insight…even if neither of us know the whole story and are speculating based on our own unique pain.
jealousy
60: Why
I’m still not sure I have a real answer why I betrayed C. I’m not sure I will ever be able to provide a personally or socially satisfactory answer to the question.
55: 22 Days – A quick summary of my failures
I’ve made a lot mistakes since discovery day, 126 days ago. I may not be doing it perfectly but I’ve been doing it.
22 days.
44: Jealousy
I awoke from a nightmare at 4 am. C was dating again. Dancing with another man. Laughing at me. Mocking me. Flashing the smile I love towards another man. Ignoring me but still watching me.
I woke up jealous. Tearful. Heartbroken.